It's important when you have a shaky life to have good company by your side. Whether that be family, friends, relationships or branding. Sad to say, I lost a piece of that when someone I truly cared about called it to a halt.
This was not a single sided thing mind you. I was more than aware that things were not going as we both as planned. Yet, when we are in lxxx it's hard to ignore those honest truths. So we meander about, mucking up our emotional stability in the hopes of creating some form of structure to what could have been better referred to as a suspension bridge with only one row to suspend it. Even now as I sit and type this posting in my dark, rather cold room, all I can do is think about how much I miss them, and how much it stinks that things ended up this way.
In my rather deteriorating state I felt the need to wander over to the local liquor store and purchase about 60$ worth of wine and liquor just to satisfy the growing void slowly consuming my sanity. Inching and wrenching through, just pretty much destroying me from the inside out. I almost equate it to a flesh-eating-virus, if I would be so lucky, cause then I would have immense physical pain to at least balance out this emotional scaring I seem to be developing.
Last night, after a rather painful day at work, I retreated to a friends house, where we acted like children, consumed food, played video games, and I honestly didn't think about the person in question at all. I had so much fun, I was almost a little pissed that as I was walking home I cried at the fact that I had forgotten about them.
This post is to all my friends who have been monumental in keeping me grounded. Rum, whiskey, Vodka, Gin, you guys are the greatest. To the rest of you, you know who you are, thanks a million people.